Breathing

(Inspired by Lauv)

12.05.2025

I’ve watched you be happy once
One day, you abandoned me
Left for dead,
You chose someone else
Over me

What was I to you?
An idiot?
Some good friend
Someone not special?
Family?
A close friend?

Why can’t you….
Return the same
Exact feelings
For me as
I do for you?

…………
Why must you
Make us realize
How extremely
Brutal and
Unlucky our
Life has been?

You say you are unlucky
But you have more than
One close friend
All I have is….you
Why am I so unlucky
Why must you make me
Hate you
Why must you exist
To make me love you

I’m in pain
I can’t breathe
Should I just die?
I can’t breathe anymore
Without you
By my side

You say I deserve
So much better
Do you realize
How brutal
My life is?
Compared to yours
Being 191 times better
Than my shitty one.

Oh my love,
I am so extremely
Envious of you
You act just like
A spoiled idiot
In my eyes
I hate it
I can’t take it
Anymore….

I could provide you
With anything
If you simply
Asked me…..

I was so terrified
Of losing you…
I had to do
Every thing
To keep you
By my side

Now look at me,
I’m depressed
Without you
Here in my life