Parasite or Paradise?

Written on 10/09/2025

Around, around
Slithering around my body
Under my skin, my blood
Crawling in my body

You make me puke
You make me scared
You make me dehydrated
You make me hungry

I saw you as my salvation,
My hope, my dreams, my everything
My hunger, my thirst, my stability
All of it, I saw you fulfilling those

I tried fulfilling all those for you too
Your water, your food, your support
All of it, I tried it all
For you

You were the only one I had
There was nobody else in my life
That could fulfill the role you took
Who else could I ask this for?
Tell me, my princess, my everything

You walked away from the battlefield
Leaving me alone to deal with the fight
On. My. Own. You left me here.
You abandoned me when I needed you
You walked away from our fight
When I needed you here
You ran away. You ran away.
You’re a coward (a coward)
You only know how to run away.

You left a wounded soldier (me)
To bleed to death
You left me to die
You were also bleeding
From the wounds I gave you
But I didn’t back down from our fight
You were the first to give up

Then you ran, you ran away
Leaving me to deal with this monster
All. On. My. Own.
I almost died, you know?
If it weren’t for these people
Rescuing me,
I would have died
I didn’t know how to defeat it.

You abandoned me with this monster.
You left me to die.
You left me to bleed to death.
You betrayed me.
You're an even worse traitor than my former companion.

You knew what my former companion did.
Yet you still chose to abandon me.
You are a selfish coward who ran away.
I didn’t know how to patch my own wounds up.
You were the only one who knew how.
Yet you left this injured soldier on my own
Waiting to be devoured by this hideous monster.

You left me.
You abandoned me.
You left me to die.
You stopped caring for me.
You didn’t care for me.
You ran. Away.
And, left me to DIE.

If you dare come back to me,
Saying you’re sorry
I will never forgive you.
You left me to die. All alone.
Don’t you dare ever come back.
If you do, I’ll treat you as my enemy.

You were once my paradise,
My safe haven,
My salvation,
My water, my food
My house, my shelter
My everything

I slowly saw what you truly are,
My personal parasite
Stuck in my body,
Unable to get you out of my body
Devouring me on the inside
Taking all my nutritions
Harming me on the inside
Taking everything from me.
I could scream and scream.
But you would never listen.
You would allow me to scream in pain,
You would allow me to die a slow death eventually.