That Was Pathetic

Written on 10/17/2025

I don’t like your excuses
I don’t like your begging
I don’t like your guessing games
I don’t like our imbalanced stage
I don’t like your lack of understanding

You said you understood me
You said that I am loved
You never said that you specifically loved me
You could get over such hardship for me
You couldn’t get over your trauma for me?

How pathetic
How weak
How worthless
How cowardly
How immature
How selfish
How self-absorbed
How undeserving to be by my side

You triggered my defense mechanism
You are worse than that devil
You should know who that devil is
You were there with me when I was fighting her after all
You should have known better
You should have been better
You should have changed with me
You should have been by my side

Look at your choice
Look at your consequences
Look what you made me become
Look how you damaged me
Look at how much pain you’ve caused me
Look at how severely wounded I am
Look at my body after you neglected me
Look at my shattered soul after your poor attempt at caring for me
Look at my broken heart after your failure as my most trusted companion
Look at how much of a failure you are
Look at how much of a disappointment you are
Look at how little you provide
Look at me and what you have done to me.

Your lack of choice is also a choice
Your choice to be a ghost is the wrong one
Your choice was an immature one
Your choice was to be a child
Your choice was to make me the adult
Your choice was to make me play the perfect soldier yet again
Your choice to do nothing was a stupid mistake
Your choice to abandon me was a hurtful one
Your choice has severe consequences
Your choice can hurt yourself all you like; I don’t care
However, your choice hurted others
Your choice hurted me severely
Your choice made others run away from you
Your choice made others ghost you
Your choice made others fight you
Your choice is to be a weak, pathetic, cowardly ghost
Your choice was that you never deserved any of us top-quality companions
Your choice was that you deserved what you gave
Get out of my sight and out of my mind.