The First Four Regression Turns

10/12/2025

I remember the first time I fell in love,
It was blissful and joyful
What a naive little boy I was back then
I tried showing her my love,
I did something sinful
My love corrupted me,
I corrupted her
That experience corrupted me
Leaving my corruption always in the back of my brain
That was my first ever love,

Then I regressed and met my second love,
It was a strange feeling
It felt very complex
Whenever I tried to love her,
She wouldn’t return it
Then, when I tried to move on….
She tried to flirt with me
We played table tennis
Until I got tired of this life

Then I decided to regress for the second time,
I met my third love,
They say the third time's a charm, eh?
Absolutely wonderful,
Felt like she was the one that got away
We held hands, kissed,
Shared quite a lot of intimacy
Then I realized…..
I was being corrupted yet again.
I took on the role,
Of being her personal nurse
It was exhausting,
Being forced to take care of her all the time
I thought this was normal,
So I did it in exchange for affection
One day, I couldn’t do it anymore
I left all of a sudden,
Guilt consumed me

I regressed for the third time
I met my first-ever official partner
Our train went fast, a bit too fast really….
It ended up derailing off track
Leaving both of us injured
Everything they asked me to do?
I said yes… for the sake of making them happy,
Why? might you ask?
Well, isn’t this how the perfect relationship is supposed to look?
To be the perfect partner,
I must serve my partner in whatever way I can.
They figured out that something was wrong,
There was a crack in my perfect mask.
I tried to cover up the crack,
They wanted to see the real me,
I didn’t want them to,
The corruption scared me,
Then I regressed onto the 4th regression cycle….