The One That Got Away

Written in 12/28/2021

Last Edited in 10/12/2025

I haven’t seen you for more than a year now,
Here I am thinking about our time together recently
I still keep the photo of your proposal for me.

We never spoke what our relationship was,
Everyone thought we were dating.
Our relationship was just seen as long-distance spouses,
It confuses people when I tell them that.
I’m pretty sure I had romantic feelings for you

If I were to count digital kisses as actual ones,
Technically, you would be my first kiss
You would also be the first person I cuddled with,
Even if it is digital only.
Also, the first and only one of whom I asked to be my Valentine

My mental health couldn’t take comforting you all the time,
As it went on longer and longer.
I felt guilty receiving your affection
Due to no longer wanting to nurse you all the time.

You tried being nice to me even after the divorce,
The way I saw it was a loss of an emotionally close/affectionate relationship
So I was sad
And thus, I acted cold towards you

I never really went through an emotional turmoil
When our relationship ended.
It’s probably why I still see you as a special person in my life
Even though you are no longer close to me.
Thank you for all you have given me.