This is a Curse

11.30.2025

One simple touch from you
Any action at all
Any misunderstanding at all
I break mentally and easily

Why must I have an
Mental autoimmune illness?
Why? Why? Why? Why?

Why am I always….
Mentally dying?
Mentally breaking?

I'm so exhausted
I can’t move on from you
I give up on moving on

You are….
The most stable
The most peaceful
The most beautiful
The most caring
The most kindest
The most "everything."
I have ever wanted
In a partner……..

I will die a million times
Just to have you….
Next to me…..
How long do I have to….
Wait until I can be by
Your side again….?

If I have to wait for…..
An eternity……..
I will do it…….

Let me analyze you
Let me figure you out
I simply don’t understand
I simply have many, many
Answers to respond to

Even if you…..
Leave me here to die
I will die 193829 times
Just to have you
Next to me

This is how I love
This is what I am
More than willing
To do for you….
My love…..
Please answer me
I can’t move on
Unless you do….

Please…..
The Savior of Death
Save me from you…..
I don’t want this….
Anymore……
cries