Who Are You Again?

Written on 10/08/2025

You were supposed to be my safe haven
The place where I could be myself
The place where I could be accepted
Where I could be loved
Hugged…..cared for……
Poured upon like I’m a flower

What happened to our world?
What happened to us?
What happened……..
Why……why did it come to this?
Why must we be enemies now?

Why did you leave?
Why did you abandon me?
Who else was I supposed to rely on?
What else was I supposed to cling onto?
How else……was I supposed to survive?
Without……..you……..
Without my thorned comforting rose

It was so cold……
You were so far away……
Why did our world shatter…….
It wasn’t supposed to be like this…..

Why must we both be on different pages?
I didn’t want us to be like this
Why did you make me do this?
Why? Why? Why? Why? Why?

You see me begging
Crying,
Screaming,
Everything I have tried doing
To get you to open the door
It never worked

You grew distant, cold, and walked away
I didn’t want to look at your cold, distorted face anymore
It was too painful and too suspicious
To look at
Your face grew ugly, twisted, and disgusting
I thought your face was gentle, kind, loving, and comforting
I was dead wrong

Who did you become?
Who I thought you were…?
You aren’t who I thought you were
You aren’t a kind, comforting, gentle rose
You are a harsh, cold, painful cactus

I came to hold you
In hopes that my wounds could be bandaged up
You poured salt on my wounds instead
Did you know how much salt?
It was a lot…..So much that
I had to be kidnapped
By a kind and loving bear
To finally realize how
How big a wound you are

My image of you….
Became so distorted
I didn’t recognize you anymore
Who are you……?
You’re suspicious
You’re dangerous

I need to put up a wall to protect myself
There needs to be a wall between us
You’re scary, terrifying even
You scare me
How do I know if you would set up a trap for me?
I don’t trust you