Why Did You Make Me Do This?

Inspired By Taylor Swift's Song: "Look What You Made Me Do"

Written on 10/08/2025

I desired your attention
Your love
Your care
Everything from you
My sweet, gentle, thorned rose

What could I do to pull you closer to me?
What could I do……
To keep you around
My world, my universe, my everything

If I lost you,
I wouldn’t have any peace
If I lost you,
I don’t think I would be alive
If I lost you,
I would be thrown into
A never-ending cycle of doom and gloom

I decided to put on the perfect mask
Fooled you into thinking that was me
Never putting down the mask
When I did try putting it down
You seemed distant….?
You didn’t seem to get it

When I gave up
Threw the entire mask away
Displayed all of my emotions
All at once
Every Single Emotion

It was too much for you
It was too shocking for you
It was too exhausting for you
It was all so….much….

“I never knew”
That’s what you expressed
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That’s because I hid it all
If I didn’t…
I may not be standing where I am

I knew in our world
It was a type of role-play stage
Neither of us being able to put down the act
Both of us trying to keep our world afloat
In our opposite directions of methods

What I wasn’t enlightened of
Did you also took upon a role
I didn’t realize I forced you to do that
I suppose there was a certain mask
What I loved about you
To a certain point…
I forced you to wear it
Glued it to your face
Until it couldn’t come off
That’s what I needed